Wondering Presbyterian

            Today I’m wondering about the relationship between “productive” and “reflective.”             I’m not feeling overly productive, as in, I’m not overly motivated to get things done (like this blog entry, to be honest). I think it’s the weather. As I look out the window, I can see raindrops falling in the parking lot and dripping down my office window. It’s very dreary, the kind of day that is perfect for hot cups of tea, blankets, and good books. Rainy day weather is good for that kind of thing. My mom would call it “good soup weather” (though I call it that, too).             I am not feeling productive, but I am feeling reflective. I’m thinking about a lot of things. I’m thinking about my cat. My cat, Joel, is dealing with some kidney issues and I have to poke him with a needle to give him fluids twice a day. Holding a cat still for five minutes twice a day is not enjoyable for me or for said cat.             I’m thinking about Lent, because tomorrow (or yesterda

Take a deep breath. Breathe in…count to four…and let it out.           As I was journaling the other day, I thought about how much I packed into this week. I wrote about how back-to-back everything was and as I was writing, I realized how fast I was writing. Even my journaling was rushed! Rushing isn't a new thing for me. I used to get in trouble at school for rushing through things. Being first didn't always mean it was neat or done correctly. Rushing still gets me into trouble. I submit to you all of the wasted scraps of fabric that I cut wrong because I didn't take time to double check the size I was supposed to cut.             So, I stopped writing in my journal, closed my eyes, and breathed in. And breathed out.             A counselor suggested to me once taking four deep breaths throughout the day and counting the breaths. She said to notice when you only get to two or three and get distracted. Re-center, and make it to that fourth breath.            To