God's Got This
Every once in a while, God
likes to remind me that He’s got this.
My
weight has always been a sore spot for me, ever since elementary school. I do not
like to talk about it, and I’m incredibly sensitive about it. This past
year, though, I have been trying to get some things in order. I paid off my
student loans and credit cards. Now I have some physical things to work on. To
that end, I began seeing a nutritionist in May. I joined a gym and try to walk outside
when I can (while I can, because let’s be honest: when it gets cold outside, I
will be under blankets on my couch with books and hot tea).
So
now it’s September. The end of September, and I was getting frustrated. I have
had some ups and downs in the journey. I keep reminding myself: small changes. Baby
steps. I can do this. Then I have a setback and there’s this little voice in my
brain that says, “Why do you even bother?”
I
hate to admit that. I really do. But I suspect many people – maybe most people –
have this voice in their head when they’re striving towards goals and experience
setbacks. Do you hear that voice, too? Why do you even bother?
I
sent my nutritionist a message about my frustration. I wrote: “This has been a frustrating
week. I think I’ve made some really good food choices and I’ve walked and gone to
the gym, but it doesn’t really feel like anything is changing. Maybe more is happening
than I think, and maybe it’s enough that I’m making small changes and trying to
stay active. (My husband) tried to give me a pep talk. It’s easy to say ‘Don’t
get discouraged’ but I’m having a hard time convincing myself that what’s good
to hear is also truth. Is it enough to celebrate the small things if things aren’t
looking the way I’d like them (me) to look?”
She
said this in response: “I feel your frustration, but changing the habits and
making that your new lifestyle is half the battle.” This and everything she
said after that is true. I didn’t feel much better.
I
sat down that night to do my journaling and devotions. I’ve been reading, Beholding
and Becoming: The Art of Everyday Worship by Ruth Chou Simmons. I opened it
up that night and this is what she said: “So take heart, dear friend:
Practice makes progress, not perfect. The race you’re running day
by day, the one foot you place in front of the other, the daily choice to
persevere, and the diligence to throw off entangling sin – in these God is at
work to perfect your faith through your practicing, again and again, the race
marked out for you. And with the love of a knowing Father who’s gone before
you, He assures you: “Child, I know what you don’t know. You’re going to be
thankful for this one day.”
God
has this amazing (and often annoying!) habit of putting the words in front of
me that I need to hear: those reminders that God is with me and that every time
I struggle, He’s still cheering me on. Somehow those words quieted my soul in
ways no one else had.
I looked up at the
ceiling, imagining that I was looking up at Heaven, and I smirked as I said, “Show
off.”
Does God do this with
you, too? What words/people/circumstances has God put in your path to remind
you that He is with you and whatever you’re going through, God’s got you?
when I come home from my parents upset there's usually a Proverbs 31 statement on Facebook that somehow are just the words I need from God
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